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[Nov. 30th, 2006|12:27 pm] |
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Why do I constantly attract girls that I have absolutely no chance with? |
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[Sep. 3rd, 2006|12:01 pm] |
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Would someone like to tell me what the HELL everyone's problem is? Seriously. |
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[Aug. 8th, 2006|12:41 am] |
August 8th, 2006.
Hm...two decades past. I feel the same.
:)
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[Apr. 26th, 2006|03:18 am] |
Tonight was my farewell dinner with my friends that won't be here over the summer. It was A LOT of fun, but it was also really sad. And of course, it really got me thinking. I'm going to miss these people SO much! Tonight really made me appreciate everyone that much more. I love you guys so so so so so so much. I really can't even put it to words, but let me just say that saying goodbye almost brought me to tears for all of you.
I don't regret my decision because I know that this is what's best. There's no turning back now. But I really do love you all more than I could ever convey. <3
-Joester |
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[Apr. 4th, 2006|04:21 am] |
I posted this once a LONG time ago, and insomnia is a bitch, so I was going back and re-reading everything. Anyway, all of the comments I got from it made me smile. A lot. So I'm going to do it again because I love you...
If you read this, even if I don't speak to you that often, you must click on "post comment" below and post a memory of me. It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad, just so long as it happened.
Get to work! Leave me a comment, and then I'll leave one back about you. I love memories!
-Joester |
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[Mar. 15th, 2006|12:23 am] |
I decided I'm doing this whether I get my parents approval or not. My sister is totally behind me. It would just be MUCH nicer to have my parents behind me as well.
They're not really into the idea right now, but I'm wrote my dad a really nice, well thought out e-mail...
"Hi dad.
I guess mom sort of told you that I was thinking about moving. I don't think she really told you all of the details though, and I've thought a lot about it. I wanted to talk to both of you on the phone last night, but that didn't happen. Anyway, I've been researching apartments up there, and I found one that I really like, and Phil knows people that live there, and he said that they're really nice. I'm thinking about getting a three bedroom with Phil and Zac, who are both very reliable and trustworthy. Phil and his family are pretty well off financially, and Zac works full time and a good job. If we get the three bedroom model, it's only $300, with water and hi-speed internet included, which is way cheaper than what we pay here. I'm going to work full time over the summer, so that I can start paying rent myself, here, and where ever I am next year.
The main reason I want to go there is because GA State has a really good music technology/recording program, and that's really what I want to go into now, and they don't offer it here. In a perfect world, I'd still be here in the music working on my ed. degree, but obviously that can't happen, and this place just doesn't seem like it's for me. There's a lot of money in that career, and it's a lot of fun for me as well.
Another reason why I think it would be a good idea for me to move is because I'm so much happier there. I really don't like it here in Tallahassee, and I feel pretty much miserable half the time. Do you remember when we first moved to Merritt Island, and you said something like "I'm so glad to be back here. Even 20 years later, it looks a little different, but I still love it"? That's exactly how I feel about Atlanta. Mom said that you said something like "You shouldn't be near your close friends when you're in college because it's distracting" but I don't think I can make it without friends. I don't really feel like I have anyone here anymore, especially since Sarah and I have been drifting apart a lot, and I just can't do it anymore. Marivic thinks it's a really good idea, and it was actually her idea in the first place. I have to run to class now, but I'll be back in about an hour. I've worked a lot of things out in my head, so if you have any questions about plans, I can probably answer them.
I hope this doesn't upset you at all. I love you.
-Joe"
Will it work? Here's hoping...
-Joester
P.S. New crush? Well, old crush, new feelings? Maybe. |
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[Mar. 14th, 2006|01:31 am] |
http://www.pcmmanagementgroup.com/Reserve/Main_0_Frame.htm
http://www.music.gsu.edu
That's the goal. Once I set my mind to something, I go full out until I get it, or until I'm forced to stop *cough*choral ed*cough*. Say what you want, this is going to happen. I love my Tallahassee friends, but this is where I belong. Projected arrival time: August 2006. Atlanta kids, mark your calendars.
That's right, bitches.
-Joester |
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[Mar. 10th, 2006|03:29 pm] |
So that banner that I posted for that band a few days ago...yeah, go click that. The songs I did are up. Like I said, you probably don't like that kind of music, and neither do I, but we worked SOOOOO hard (almost 28 hours of labor), so at least take a listen because I'm pretty proud of the work I did. In fact, to make like easier for you, I'll repost that ugly banner.
Word. Enjoy! Or at least pretend to...
-Joester |
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[Mar. 7th, 2006|11:27 am] |
In a few days, check out that band's myspace, and there should be some songs recorded, mixed, and mastered by yours truly. I doubt it's the type of music any of you like, but give a listen anyway, for me. Pleeeeeeeeeeease? I somewhere around 15 hours of work went into these songs that we're doing, and I still have a bunch to do now before they're ready to be posted, so yeah. I'm awesome. You're awesome. This band is pretty cool too. That is all.
-Joester |
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[Mar. 1st, 2006|03:49 pm] |
So I had tons of time between therapy and classes yesterday, so I started writing random stuff down, and since I haven't written in here in a while, I think I'll type it up here. Some of it might not make sense because it was like stream-of-consciousness type stuff, but whatever. Since I wrote this yesterday, just assume that "today" means "yesterday" and "tomorrow" means "today." Here it goes...
Ugh...what to do. My best friend doesn't care much about being close friends anymore. Still need to work on changing my major. Sarah is acting like a fucking retard. She put herself in a crappy position. Hopefully she'll realize that it can't ALWAYS be about fun, and that her actions have consequences. Part of me feels no sympathy because its all her own doing, but another part of me wishes that I could make it all go away. But that's just kind of how it's been lately. There's a fine line between love and hate, and I have a foot on either side of the line. Perfect mood music on my iPod. "Bring back the good times..."
Family stuff is getting MUCH better, and I feel like a lot of it is because of me (thanks to Amy, my therapist), and that makes me feel really good. I love alone time that feels productive. Remove the Sarah drama from the equation, and I feel pretty content with my life. Almost happy, even!!! Can't wait for ATL this weekend! I <3 then SO much! Zac and I are going to rock that city into oblivion. Feel the power of rock, bitches.
Some guy commented on my 6 year old Weezer shirt today. Not even sure how it still fits me. Funny stuff. Dinner with Nichole and Anka tomorrow. Yay! I need some water. *gets up and gets some water (no, I didn't actually write that out by hand, I actually got up and got water)* Speaking of Nichole and Anka, there they are! I think they want privacy though.
I've been talking to Kellylane (Leggypoo) lately. She's probably sick of hearing my stupid drama, but she's always cool about it anyway. <3
I've sort of been talking on myspace with Coley too, even though I despise myspace. Yay for that. I guess I'm out of things to write now, which sucks because I still have an hour until class! GAY! Oh well. <3 the weather today. And with that, I'm out. Word.
-Joester |
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[Feb. 1st, 2006|02:43 pm] |
Finally updating.
So I opened my mailbox today, and it was full of medical bills, doctors appointments, and letters from my attorney. How old am I again? YEESH.
Apparently the Digestive Disease Clinic found something abnormal, contrary to what my physician told me, and so I have to do MORE blood work. And an ultrasound. Weird.
So I started therapy last week. The first session was good. Session two tomorrow. I'm looking forward to it, I think.
In happier news, I helped Sarah record an audition for a summer program, and we put it onto a CD. Not only did it turn out better than I expected, but she was very impressed with the quality, and said that I was "surprisingly professional." She was really excited about it, and the best part is, even though it took about three and a half hours, and it was a bit tedious, I REALLY enjoyed doing it. I think I'm going to record a CD for one of Sarah's hallmates, and I'm really looking forward to that. I'm going to have her pay me for this, though she gets a discount because she's a friend...a hot friend! So hopefully, if I do this for her, and it turns out well, I can get more projects by word of mouth, and I can use this to get some extra money. I'm really excited about it. I plan on starting out with small things, like audition tapes/CD's, and random demo CD's, and hopefully raising money for better equipment and computer programs so I can move on to better recordings. I feel pretty happy about this whole thing. Yay!
-Joester |
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[Jan. 22nd, 2006|02:29 am] |
I think I might be retarded.
-Joester |
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[Jan. 18th, 2006|01:40 am] |
Dear Diary,
Life is gay. SUCK IT.
-Joester |
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[Dec. 12th, 2005|10:11 am] |
Even after 19 years of knowing someone, they can still surprise you...
"Joe,
We’re thinking of you. How are you doing since you’ve had a few days to process this in your mind? Any idea yet what you will do?
I’m wondering some things;
- Is there a way to file an appeal or request different judges?
- Is there another major within the school of music that you can transfer to?
- How much of your credits can be applied/transferred to a non-music major?
Mom’s first reaction was to have you come right home and go to BCC. I don’t think that’s the answer for any of us. Not that it’s not an option (it is) but probably not the best one. You should appointments with a guidance counselor AND whoever runs the school of music. You need to find out what all your options are.
By the way, there’s no hurry. You have your whole life ahead of you. But just the same, you don’t want to waste any time either. We think the best thing is to stay in school at FSU at least for the next semester and take requisite classes that can be applied towards an associates or bachelors. Then you can take your time and decide a new major over the next semester/summer.
You’re very smart and talented. I know it may feel like your dream is over, but it’s not. This is just a bump in the road such as does to all of us. You’ll work it out and get past it. One day this will all just be a memory, a “snap of the fingers” in time. It will have been a life-altering snap, but not necessarily in a bad way. Pray about it, as we are praying for you.
Please write back. I care about you and want you to share this with me. We will do whatever we can to help you.
Love,
Dad"
I don't even know what to say... |
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[Aug. 16th, 2005|11:39 am] |
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I <3 INTERNET!!!
-Joester |
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[Aug. 9th, 2005|03:00 am] |
Well, I think it's safe to say that my 19th year is off to an AMAZING start! Details to come. Or you could IM me because that would be MUCH better since I'm too lazy and too ADD to explain everything here.
LOVE TIMES 92038409237592804574!
-Joester |
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[Aug. 8th, 2005|01:15 pm] |
Hm...August 8th.
Can someone tell me what today is? :)
-Joester |
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[Jul. 21st, 2005|11:16 am] |
I've come to a tentative decision.
-Joester |
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